Cerulean Mornings

Alright y'all, it's August. A new month, and I have got a bit of things done in July but not nearly as much as I'd like. But that's okay. I will try, try again, until I succeed. Well, that's what my motivational calendar says, so it must come true at some point, no?

(Speaking of that calendar, it's so cute and positive that I'm definitely buying the 2021 edition if she comes out with one. Makes me happy just looking at it every day before starting work.)

So a lot had happened to me mental and physical health-wise in the past month. I've a long road of surgery and other things going on this month, a continuation from the past few weeks, but it's not all bad. It did take me a while to physically recover from my surgery in July, however, which was why I didn't do as much work as I planned to. I have more things coming up in August and I'm hoping the recovery will not take as long, but I guess we'll see when we get there. As of now I'm perfectly healthy of body so that's not an issue. Mental health-wise I stopped going to my therapist because I think I've got a good grip of myself now. I planned out a pretty good routine, and although I haven't really rigorously followed it in the month of July, starting today, first of August, that's what I will do. I bought myself a new journal for writing - my therapist basically taught me some techniques to deal with stress using journals - longhand, pen to paper, not bullet form. Plus I finally read Ryder Carroll's The Bullet Journal Method (I read and finished a book, y'all! Something I haven't done in, uh, years), where he goes in depth about the purpose of BuJo and how to live mindfully. Long story short, I realized now there are lot of long-hand self-reflections that I should delve into, because they could potentially stabilize my mental health on the long run, so I got myself a good new notebook along with a bunch of gel pens. I love my fountain pens but sometimes you just want a bunch of different colors quickly without changing the ink all the time, ya know? Anyway, like with the routines, I haven't put all that into practice in July due to surgery recovery, but now, starting today, I am.

So that's the gist of August for now. I am quite motivated, for once, and although there will be dips in my journey, I have a lot of tools right now at my disposal to help me through it - hopefully. If not I can always go back to my therapist but I don't think I need to any time soon. So yeah, happy August folks. I'm hoping this will actually be a productive month, and I can keep it up.