Time to Walk
June 13th, 2020 17:03Yeah...totally did not work as much as I intended to yesterday. Just couldn't muster the courage somehow. Familiar tune, I guess. But I did work a full hour on it, which is actually a surprise to mean, because it meant I have been working everyday for a full week by now. That's progress.
You know the saying that if you can't run, walk; if you can't walk, crawl; just don't stop moving forward? Or something like that. I've just proved that, dragging kicking and screaming, I can crawl every day and move forward and not have a mental breakdown. (Well, not have one that severely depresses me. I have been feeling very tired these days, but I think that's just because I'm out of shape, so to speak.) I think it's time for me move onto the walking section. On some days I might still need to crawl, might even need a good day of rest, but I should be stepping up my game. Tiredness I can adjust, and as my body and mind begin to regular exercise again (gosh Covid quarantine is so unhealthy in so many ways), I can do more as I build up strength. I really didn't think that I could have written anything for at least an hour every day this week. Did not expect it at all - thought I wouldn't have done anything on some of the days. But I did. So it's proof of concept for further improvements.
I also find that if I DON'T explicitly have a goal, I do more. Like, I felt like I HAVE to finish editing the chapter yesterday, and of course didn't come close to that because I was progressing too slowly for that to happen, and upon realization of that, I got super discouraged and then got even slower, and then I stopped due to no motivation. Which is, again, counterproductive. (Boy do I have a lot of mental hurdles to overcome if everything I do seems counterproductive.) If I just went and thought: let's just focus on making this section as best and satisfactory as possible. Set a timer, and if two hours passed and I'm still stuck on this section, then move on and come back tomorrow, I probably will get a lot further. That's what I'm going to try today. If I finish the chapter, great. If not, there's always more time later. The point is to keep going for longer, and the goal will eventually be reached faster.
You know the saying that if you can't run, walk; if you can't walk, crawl; just don't stop moving forward? Or something like that. I've just proved that, dragging kicking and screaming, I can crawl every day and move forward and not have a mental breakdown. (Well, not have one that severely depresses me. I have been feeling very tired these days, but I think that's just because I'm out of shape, so to speak.) I think it's time for me move onto the walking section. On some days I might still need to crawl, might even need a good day of rest, but I should be stepping up my game. Tiredness I can adjust, and as my body and mind begin to regular exercise again (gosh Covid quarantine is so unhealthy in so many ways), I can do more as I build up strength. I really didn't think that I could have written anything for at least an hour every day this week. Did not expect it at all - thought I wouldn't have done anything on some of the days. But I did. So it's proof of concept for further improvements.
I also find that if I DON'T explicitly have a goal, I do more. Like, I felt like I HAVE to finish editing the chapter yesterday, and of course didn't come close to that because I was progressing too slowly for that to happen, and upon realization of that, I got super discouraged and then got even slower, and then I stopped due to no motivation. Which is, again, counterproductive. (Boy do I have a lot of mental hurdles to overcome if everything I do seems counterproductive.) If I just went and thought: let's just focus on making this section as best and satisfactory as possible. Set a timer, and if two hours passed and I'm still stuck on this section, then move on and come back tomorrow, I probably will get a lot further. That's what I'm going to try today. If I finish the chapter, great. If not, there's always more time later. The point is to keep going for longer, and the goal will eventually be reached faster.
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