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ceruleanmorningsYep, I signed up again this year. If you're unfamiliar, this will give all the information you need. It's basically a collaborative fic/art challenge, where you write a fic based on a piece of artwork. Thing is, I tried twice before and failed to complete my work both times. The first time I got way too ambitious, and so the fic became this giant thing that I lost interest in (might still finish, actually, some day in the very distant future). The second time I was in the midst of a lot of surgeries and eye problems so had to drop out due to medical reasons. So, yeah, not a great track record.
But not this year! No, this year I WILL complete this, because I should, and it might be the thing that keeps me sane. Because listen, I realized belatedly this month (yep, this month, instead of, oh I don't know, 5 years ago?) that I need something to make me happy for me to be productive. Like, it's not enough to rest, I actively need something to do to make myself happy, which is especially hard in a depressive episode brought on by, oh I don't know, the entire 2020 year because of everything that's going on? I have to do active happy work to be productive in stressful work, does that make sense? And I've decided that you know what, writing fanfic makes me happy. So yeah, let's just jump right in and make it happen.
Writer's sign up period is not even finished so I'm not going to talk about this too much any time soon, but just know that yes, I signed up for another year and I'm both excited and trepidatious. I am also determined to finish writing this other fic which I deemed as a make-up fill for the first year, where I just didn't complete the assignment. It's much shorter and 2/3 finished and I just need to continue writing it, which is hard, because, again, all those depressive episodes. I'm trying to finish writing that before I start writing the new one. Yeesh. All this along with my actual novel work - I will have a busy end of year. Maybe at least that'll redeem 2020 a little, because as far as I'm concerned, this year solely deserve to be thrown into the trash.
But not this year! No, this year I WILL complete this, because I should, and it might be the thing that keeps me sane. Because listen, I realized belatedly this month (yep, this month, instead of, oh I don't know, 5 years ago?) that I need something to make me happy for me to be productive. Like, it's not enough to rest, I actively need something to do to make myself happy, which is especially hard in a depressive episode brought on by, oh I don't know, the entire 2020 year because of everything that's going on? I have to do active happy work to be productive in stressful work, does that make sense? And I've decided that you know what, writing fanfic makes me happy. So yeah, let's just jump right in and make it happen.
Writer's sign up period is not even finished so I'm not going to talk about this too much any time soon, but just know that yes, I signed up for another year and I'm both excited and trepidatious. I am also determined to finish writing this other fic which I deemed as a make-up fill for the first year, where I just didn't complete the assignment. It's much shorter and 2/3 finished and I just need to continue writing it, which is hard, because, again, all those depressive episodes. I'm trying to finish writing that before I start writing the new one. Yeesh. All this along with my actual novel work - I will have a busy end of year. Maybe at least that'll redeem 2020 a little, because as far as I'm concerned, this year solely deserve to be thrown into the trash.
